you.

You asked me today whether I would miss you if you left, I wanted so much to say yes. But I don't want to be selfish, I want you to be happy and live your life with no regrets. Even if that means I will regret my decision for the rest of my life.

I've grown accustomed to your presence. To hear that you want to move overseas, feels like I'm being cut with a knife over and over again yet I have to continue smiling for you. We spend so much time together, we talk online every day, we talk on the phone most nights, and I find every excuse I can to see you, but I don't think you get my hints.

You always tell me how you meet someone new, ask me what you should do, I tell you to go for it, go with your heart and go for the girl you like, and I wish so much that I was the one, but you tell me you haven't found the one that you share a spark with.

You've become part of my routine, without you I feel like there's a crucial piece of me missing, I wait until you come online every day, every night I'm watching the clock, and constantly checking my phone to see if you call. I don't know how I will move on if you move away, or of I will ever have to ability to move on by myself.

You always give me hope to carry on, to wait for you, you react, I respond. But I want a different response from you. I want that response from you.

I'm so tired of waiting for you now...I don't know how much longer I will be able to withstand this pain, seeing you searching for your spark, when I'm here right next to you. Please give me a response, the one I'm looking for. You've opened the window to my heart and stepped in, without you, it will leave a hole and bleed.

幾多溫柔葬深海 幾多心血難復再
　沒有天賜愛但仍信愛 地塌天崩不悔改
　忘記心魔平復障礙 天窗總會為你開
　多少死去再活來痛愛 讓渺小肩膊負載
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