tired of this =(

I feel so tired for being the one that always has to do everything. No one understands the way I feel, no one knows the things I have to do.
It may sound childish, but why did I have to be the eldest child? Always being asked to do this, to do that, read letters, fill out forms, print this, write that.

I don't know how much longer I can take, theres so much stress but no one sees it, because I have to pretend like nothing's wrong, and try to make others happy.
I'm happy that I can make people feel happy, but what about me? Who is here to make me happy when I need it?

My parents always tell me to do things because I know how to do it, and I try to do my best, even if I'm not fast but it seems as though what I do is never good enough for them, like I should do things right now and get them done asap right after they tell me. They don't understand that I have uni, extra curricular activities, hw, assignments and work for them, and I need a life, which I don't at the moment.

They question why I don't have a boyfriend, maybe the fact that I travel 2.5 hours home to work on weekends is one reason...

I'm just so tired, I'm tired of waiting for you, I thought you would be over her, but it seems as though you aren't, I can feel it...
I wish soo hard that you could one day read my thoughts, even if it were just the one single thought, but you're so oblivious.